return, Word,
bring, too, the air of life
unforgotten
by this quill
uncertain
of what is noteworthy
to ink
under the guise of creation
where i
flick syllables left and right
searching for the ones
you anointed for this time
of true repentance
of guided healing.
I confess my broken heart, Lord.
I confess my longing to be held.
I confess my heart is yours.
I confess my life is yours.
I confess my time is yours to give and take.
I confess my thoughts are misguided at best.
I confess YOU are Eternal, Vast, Mysterious & Majestic.
I confess YOU are full of Wisdom, Grace & Love.
I confess YOU have saved me from all evil.
I confess I forget these things from time to time…although I don’t mean to.
I confess I don’t speak up as often as you prompt me because I am afraid of humans.
(I am trying to get better about it.)
I confess it is harder for me to change than I let on, that letting go and trusting is harder than I pretend.
I confess to being hurt, and not seeking to reconcile it properly, and holding bitterness within my heart…separating US from one another in my heart…but not in reality…as Jesus has mended all things.
I confess that because of these things, it is hard to know how to handle myself. And, because I don’t trust YOU enough, or myself, I have a hard time trusting others.
Dear God, may I continue to step towards YOU, even when I am afraid.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
I feel a bit lost today.
I am tired. Maybe going to bed before 12.20 am is a good start to feeling better. This has been a tough weekend. Mark and I are trying to decide if we should put our house on the market and move, or if we should stay here and make renovations. There are several hard factors in this equation.
Reasons to stay...
1.) The kids have developed friendships in our neighborhood...
2.) We are close to many things we've begun to enjoy: Ecclesia The Woodlands, and Class Act Productions for starters.
3.) This is a great neighborhood, safe and friendly, and we love it!
4.) Our house is a huge blessing, with more than enough room to share!
5.) Levi was born here! Of course, he was born in the bed...and the bed will go with us!
Reasons to leave...
1.) The renovations to this house are not so much the issue, as that we would LOVE to have a pool...and that renovation is costly.
2.) It would be nice to be closer to our family since we are no longer needing to be near The Woodlands for school.
3.) There are families in the Willowbrook area that attend ETW! We could start a small group out there and have community.
4.) We would still be close to Trinity, their school if we only moved 15 minutes into Spring.
5.) We are still not in 'that house' that we want to be in forever.
6.) I would like a bigger laundry room...or one that allows laundry not to occupy the breakfast room floor three to four days per week.
I am conflicted, because some of these reasons (ok, maybe all) seem shallow and not really, really good reasons to move. I am glad the kids' school is not an issue, because they have always been in private, and are starting a new school this fall...their friends are sort of scattered about anyway and doing different things.
Please pray for us as we sort out what this means for our family. It looks like come January, we may be on the market!
Peace, K
I am tired. Maybe going to bed before 12.20 am is a good start to feeling better. This has been a tough weekend. Mark and I are trying to decide if we should put our house on the market and move, or if we should stay here and make renovations. There are several hard factors in this equation.
Reasons to stay...
1.) The kids have developed friendships in our neighborhood...
2.) We are close to many things we've begun to enjoy: Ecclesia The Woodlands, and Class Act Productions for starters.
3.) This is a great neighborhood, safe and friendly, and we love it!
4.) Our house is a huge blessing, with more than enough room to share!
5.) Levi was born here! Of course, he was born in the bed...and the bed will go with us!
Reasons to leave...
1.) The renovations to this house are not so much the issue, as that we would LOVE to have a pool...and that renovation is costly.
2.) It would be nice to be closer to our family since we are no longer needing to be near The Woodlands for school.
3.) There are families in the Willowbrook area that attend ETW! We could start a small group out there and have community.
4.) We would still be close to Trinity, their school if we only moved 15 minutes into Spring.
5.) We are still not in 'that house' that we want to be in forever.
6.) I would like a bigger laundry room...or one that allows laundry not to occupy the breakfast room floor three to four days per week.
I am conflicted, because some of these reasons (ok, maybe all) seem shallow and not really, really good reasons to move. I am glad the kids' school is not an issue, because they have always been in private, and are starting a new school this fall...their friends are sort of scattered about anyway and doing different things.
Please pray for us as we sort out what this means for our family. It looks like come January, we may be on the market!
Peace, K
Thursday, July 09, 2009
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